elessa: (Default)
Slightly tipsy thanks to a bottle of mead. I am bad at writing down anything these days. Used to be diligent at noting how my day was going, or what I was feeling.

I finally took the steps necessary to get a protection order against the guy who has been stalking me since 2003. While his random emails through the years were annoying, it wasn't until he started sending ones saying that he would be present for my death that I realised something needed to be done.

Finally think things are going peachy when I learn I may have cancer. Oh goody. Waiting for test results that will tell me I need more tests.

Musings

Jun. 29th, 2016 07:51 pm
elessa: (wyveri)
Too many things going on in the world that are draining and depressing.

  • The hate killings at the Pulse Night Club in Orlando.

  • The woman gun enthusiast in Texas who was into open carry and the mindset of "you will get my guns when you pry them out of my cold dead hands" who had an argument with her husband. To teach him a lesson she chased down and shot her young adult daughters dead in the street. One of them was wounded when she ran out of bullets so she went back into the house to reload, then returned to pump more into the girl.

  • The three bombers who killed over forty people and wounded hundreds more at the Ataturk Aiport in Istanbul.

  • Brexit. This one depresses me because the premise of Europe being unified in a financial trade union rather than killing one another is a good thing. I hope that if there is recession there that the region doesn't devolve into violence again.

  • The political campaigning leading up the the presidential election bringing out hate, bigotry, xenophobia, and other ugly sides to people.


  • My parents having finally made plans in December 2015 to travel to Ireland at long last booked a trip for June 2016. This is a trip they have talked about for years. Five years ago for their fiftieth wedding anniversary the siblings chipped in to give them $5K in order to make the trip.In the interim my father developed congestive heart failure necessitating in the need to acquire a portable oxygen generator. There was miscommunication with the vendor. Result is that the device wasn't scheduled to be delivered until after the date of the trip departure. Therefore, trip cancelled.


I am finding myself turning off the news more and more lately. My psyche can't take the reality that there are people out there who revel in violence and death.

Two weeks ago I experienced a fall due to pain from a back spasm causing me to blackout. The result of the fall is a dislocated jaw which is healing slowly. The impact of the fall and the blacking out for an hour on the floor gives me pause. Not sure what to do about it currently. I am realising that as I get older I am becoming at risk for injury that could kill me. Reason for this is due to living alone.
elessa: (wyveri)
Fear of the unknown. In this case, the source of significant pain.

As a dutiful sheep I go every two years or so for a mammogram. When I haven't gone I receive postcards reminding me that I ought to. Who would have thought it would be difficult to actually schedule one when concerned about breast pain.

This morning I call to schedule a mammogram. Been there, done that. Except this time when the scheduler asks if there is any pain I answer "yes". Well, that changes everything. I cannot schedule an appointment without a referral from a doctor. Nevermind that the last three I have had I didn't need one. The reason given that that more tests will be conducted in addition to the mammogram.

Ok, fine.

Schedule a doctor appoint at a local care clinic with zoom in/zoom out services. (I love the facility and have been using it for four years). Anyway, doctor palpitates, but finds nothing out of the ordinary. Writes a referral due to my explaining I am in significant, unexplained pain.

Think ice pick being jammed into your body.

As soon as I walk out, I call the breast clinic to schedule a mammogram. Nope. Can't schedule. They need the doctor's order. I explain I have a hard copy of the order. How long will they remain open. Ok, another hour. I drive over.

It has now been seventeen minutes from the time I called to when I arrive. I hand over the copy. Nope. Can't schedule because it has to come directly from the doctor's office.

The receptionist calls the clinic. Theoretically an official copy will be received tomorrow. The scheduler should contact me.

All I know is that I am in serious pain that I want explained. I also know women who died from breast cancer as well as women who have survived it. I just hope that I don't have cancer.
elessa: (fluffy bunny)
Disturbing news in the email tonight from my father. Apparently my brother called as he is wont to do on Sunday evenings. My father found it odd my mother was not on the extension. He went looking for her. She wasn't in her bedroom when he checked, nor in the front or back yards. He returned to double check her bedroom. She had fallen between the bed and the wall while trying to answer the phone and broken her left shoulder.

This is not good at all because six months ago she fell and broke her right humerus at the ball where it joins the right shoulder. It has not healed correctly so she has no use of her right arm.

My father is not exactly spry as he has two replacement knees and pretty bad arthritis. How the hell he will be able to care for her and two dogs that weigh more than either one of them is a mystery.

Tomorrow I best call to learn what the hell is going on.
elessa: (wyveri)
In order to lose weight I really need to stop eating dessert foods. It defeats the purpose of eating an otherwise "healthy" diet of vegetables and seafood on occasion. Hard to resist the temptation of all the sugary things at the office. Must figure out a way to convince myself that sugar cookies, lemon bars, and cupcakes are not in my best interest. But, damn, they taste so good.

Yeah, so good you have gained five pounds over the last few weeks. ~sigh
elessa: (wyveri)
Today I fed my inner Eastern European. I have been craving braised red cabbage for a few days. I decided to take care of the need for the comfort food by making a deep skillet worth. Braised the head of red cabbage along with an onion and granny smith apple. Seasoned with salt, caraway seed and a splash of apple cider vinegar.

I also roasted some Yukon Gold fingerling potatos to serve alongside the cabbage.

Oh so very tasty. Lots of leftovers for the upcoming week.

I prepared two servings of yoghurt for breakfast as well. Plain yoghurt with sliced banana and grapes with a few dashes of cinnamon. I like how sitting in the refrigerator overnight allows the banana to infuse the plain yoghurt with sweetness naturally.

Any other ways to save money on food consumption will be incorporated as I have motivation.

It also helps towards the latest health challenge at work. I signed up to maintain, not gain between Nov 3 through Dec 31. Object is to maintain or not gain more than three pounds with the upcoming deluge of sweets coming for the holidays.

The challenge is a requirement in order to save $30/month off my contribution to my health insurance premium. I will take every cent I can finagle.
elessa: (rainy day)
Coming out the other side of two weeks of bronchitis. Nice to not be coughing every minute or so.

Part of my resolutions for this year is to be more social, hence my catching bronchitis. I went to a convention in Seattle two weeks ago as there were going to be two bands playing I really wanted to watch. Friends I haven't seen in many years were also going to be there. Bonus!

After giving me a big hug, my friend turned to the side to cough. She mentioned she had been sick for a couple days. I knew I was doomed.

The concerts were fantastic. I really enjoy the sounds of the bands, "Brother" and "Faun". Something about bagpipes, didgeridoo, drums, harps, guitars, and hurdy gurdy to make the soul soar.

It was a last minute decision I made to attend the show. Basically on Thursday I asked for time off on Friday. I am glad I did. It is good to get out and about.

This past Friday I went to a gallery show. Ended up meeting a friend beforehand to have a late lunch, then went for a motorcycle ride to the art museum. Learned that on Fridays admission is $5 after 5:00p. Cool thing is it was only 4:30p and we still got the bargain admission price.

Really dislike modern art. It has no attraction to me whatsoever. Two plates of rusted steel welded to a bar? A canvas painted 5/8s solid blue and 3/8s solid yellow? Stripes on canvas? A bronze turd?

The exhibit of art from Venice was nice. Some wonderful paintings, sculptures, and musical instruments. I was really sad that when illuminated books are on exhibit only two pages can be shown. I would like to see the other 50-100 pages in the books.


Listening to the rain falling from the sky in large drops which are pounding upon the window panes. Drenching type of rain. If I weren't sick I would be inclined to go outside to become soaked. Would be fantastic for the hair.
elessa: (wickedly)
when being admitted to the hospital for some outpatient tests yesterday i was asked the requisite questions such as address, phone number, emergency contact, etc. the one that threw the admitting clerk for a loop was when she asked religious preference. i answered, "pagan."

i had to spell it for her. seriously.
elessa: (bike)
i went for a bike ride today. hurts so good.
elessa: (Default)
dear president obama, please reverse the restrictions on embryonic stem cell research so that the US may join the UK in further studies of stem cells in the treatment of MS. this study in the UK shows tremendous promise.

Symptoms were reduced in 17 sufferers in a test group of 21 after they were treated with blood stem cells taken from their bone marrow. These haemopoietic cells, which are the precursors to all the components of blood, were used to replace types of white blood cell that attack the central nervous system in MS sufferers. Times of London - Sam Lister, Health Editor - Jan 29, 2009
elessa: (fluffy bunny)
yet another reason not to eat processed and prepared foods from the grocery if you can help it.

Mercury Found in Commerical Corn Syrup AOL - Jan. 26

Almost half of the corn syrup tested in a new study contained mercury, according to HealthDay News. And a third of commercial food products with corn syrup had mercury as well.
The studies focused on high-fructose corn syrup, known as HFCS, which is often produced using caustic soda that contains mercury, the news service reported.

One study, published in the Environmental Health Journal, found detectable levels of mercury in nine out of 20 commercial HFCS samples.

The other study found that one of every three brand-name foods, out of 55 tested, included mercury, HeathDay News reported. The most common foods with mercury were dairy products, dressing and condiments.

"The bad news is that nobody knows whether or not their soda or snack food contains HFCS made from ingredients like caustic soda contaminated with mercury," said Dr. David Wallinga, of the Institute for Agriculture and Trade Policy, in HealthDay News. He co-authored both studies.

According to the Department of Health and Human Services, high levels of mercury can cause brain and liver damage. Short-term exposure to high levels of mercury can increase blood pressure and trigger rashes, eye irritation, nausea, vomiting and other health problems.

"Mercury is toxic in all its forms," Wallinga said, according to HealthDay News. "Given how much high-fructose corn syrup is consumed by children, it could be a significant additional source of mercury never before considered.”



EPA - mercury health effects
elessa: (fluffy bunny)
if this isn't a reason to grow and cook my own food i don't know what is. in today's global economy there is a lot of food and food processing ingredients coming from all over the world. quite a considerable amount comes from china. i have pretty much ceased buying any processed foods over the last three years. i frequent farm markets for local produce.

melamine, which supplemented wheat gluten, was an ingredient used in pet food sold in the US and Canada killed hundreds of pets. that same additive was in baby formula and chocolate candy sold in China, New Zealand, Australia, and other oceania countries. it caused deaths and illness in thousands of babies.

China bans lye, boric acid as food additives
Government crackdown is aimed at improving shoddy food safety record
MSNBC / AP

Among the 17 banned substances was boric acid, commonly used as an insecticide, which is mixed with noodles and meatballs to increase elasticity, a statement posted on the Ministry of Health Web site said. Also forbidden was industrial formaldehyde and lye, used in making soap and drain cleaner and added to water used to soak some types of dried seafood to make the products appear fresher and bigger.
elessa: (tigs)
NYC cats keep rats on the run

NY Times
By KATE HAMMER
As efficient as cats may be at keeping away rats and mice, their presence in delis and bodegas in New York City can lead to legal trouble.


has the bureaucracy lost its mind?

“Any animal around food presents a food contamination threat,” said Robert M. Corrigan, a rodentologist and research scientist for the New York City Department of Health and Mental Hygiene. “And so that means anything from animal pieces and parts to hair and excrement could end up in food, and that alone, of course, is a violation of the health code.”

if having cats in a deli or other establishment which serves food gives cause for fines and citations, why the hell can we own cats in homes where food is prepared on a daily basis? if they are so unsanitary and unhealthy, shouldn't cats be banned as pets?

wtf?

get real. cats are not unsanitary and unhealthy if taken care of. they have been ratters for a few millenia. cats are necessary predators which happen to make wonderful companions. back off NYC.
elessa: (taurus)
took a look at today's horoscope. interesting how on the money it is.

Moving forward in your life is rewarding and exciting, but every day you do get a little bit older. And aging is aging. Your body may be suddenly revealing its vulnerabilities. First of all, do not panic! If you're feeling more aches or pains, do not ignore them. Taking care of any health concerns should be your top priority, whether that means making a doctor's appointment or ordering a sandwich on whole wheat bread instead of white. You could end up being better off than before.

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